Love, Loss, and Moving Pictures
I lost someone this week.
My dear uncle passed away after a long illness.
Through my sadness I found myself turning to his YouTube channel. Flickering videos of his grandchildren, my wedding, family fun, memories captured in time.
He and I shared a love for the movies. And while he preferred the historical Pakistani musical variety and I preferred the equally cheesy 70’s American musical variety, it was a passion for movies that we both could never really explain.
There’s something about a movie that is so magical it defies words.
He sat in the audience filming the entire thing and when he sent me the video I was breathless. For him to capture one of the happiest days of my life will always touch my heart.
And although it hurts that we can’t be near him now I know he will live on in those videos he took.
All we have to do is press play.
” It was one of those days when it’s a minute away from snowing and there’s this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. Right? And this bag was just dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. That’s the day I realized that there was this entire life behind things, and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video’s a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember… I need to remember… Sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world, I feel like I can’t take it, and my heart is just going to cave in.”